Dance in the Rain!

The last few days it has rained here. We really needed the rain. It was to warm and grass fires were popping up everywhere. People lost homes and other things. Now that it has rained some wish it would stop. Never satisfied with what we have tends to be a normal theme. I know for me I struggle with being satisfied right where I am at. I want to travel, cook, and save the world and I want it now. But we all know that is not realistic. God's word tells us to be content.

 1 Timothy 6:5-7 says “and constant friction between people of corrupt mind, who have been robbed of the truth and who think that godliness is a means to financial gain. But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it.”

 

God wants us to lean on Him, trust and be content where He has us. This is hard for even me, but I am learning everyday. So instead of moaning over the cold and the rain, today I will dance and celebrate it. I will hum as I clean my home, laugh with a nice movie and enjoy the nice meal God has provided for me. Today will only be here now and tomorrow's adventure can wait.

Song that has really spoke to me by Deluge:

She wept.

"if this man were a prophet he would know who is touching him and what kind of woman she is--she is a sinner." Luke 7:39 (NIV)

I have always found some kind of comfort in the story of the woman who washed Jesus's feet with her tears. Not because of the way it portrays her servitude or even how it points out the attitudes of others. No it really stands out to me because I am that woman. I have been poor, outcasted and scorned. I have found myself desperate for peace, love and to be saved from my pain. And having found that she gives all she has for it. She lays it all out to obtain it. She knows what others have said about her. She is a prostitute, a whore, a nobody so who would love her. All her shame she leaves at his feet in her tears, all her heart she pours out over his feet, and with all she has left she wipes away the shame and fears she laid there. She is safe. She has found one who takes her as she is and loves her despite what she believes she is.

I think belief has a powerful hold. If I believe that I am nothing more than the negative then I find no hope in my life outside of it. If I believe only the positive then I live a life void of truth. When I accept the good and the bad... when I seek out the one who sees both the good and bad of my life, then I am living a full life. Scars may make someone else say "she is ugly, broken, used" but to him I am beautiful, special and loved.

This may sound like alot of misguided words to some. Maybe you have only found bitterness and scorn in your day. Unfortunately, as people we don't always see how our actions affect others. I know I certainly don't. I don't pretend to have all the answers either. I am a complete mess. But my heart longs and sees the hope in laying it all at God's metaphoric feet. He has never left me or forsake me though others and their choices have. I don't mean to talk alot of blah blah blahs here. I hope you can really see my heart. If you've been broken or hurting its hard to lay it down. Or at least for me I know it can be. I invite you to come cry your tears with me. And then after the tears I hope we can then share the joy that finds us after.

Sweet Dreams!