Shaken but Endures...

" Those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion, which cannot be shaken but endures forever.  As the mountains surround Jerusalem, so the Lord surrounds his people both now and forevermore." Psalms 125:1-2 (NIV) Zondervan

I find trust is a hard thing for me.  After experiencing so many things in life that have broken my trust it seems like its a stupid thing to do. Right?  When a person trusts their parent, friend, or someone else to be worthy of trust and they break that it leaves us maybe feeling raw inside and betrayed.  So when I look at God through betrayed scarred eyes it seems hard to believe I can trust Him.  And the anger I have because of it is at times overwhelming.  So what now?  Do I throw my hands up and decide to live a fearful scared existence that has me avoid intimate relationships with others?  My answer is no.

The people that hurt me aren't God.  He said through the psalmist in Psalms 125 that He would surround me now and forever.  He didn't want those people to hurt me.  They had choices and unfortunately they chose the one that hurt me and probably others.  And even though I was hurt God brought good people too.  People who showed me love and kindness even if it was only a little bit.  God's heart is that we make the good choice, but sometimes we don't.  Sometimes we are blinded by our own selfish desires.  We don't see the waves the choices can make.  Sometimes the choices we make are made because we are blind to the other choices available.  Regardless, the choice sets in motion good or bad.  The thing I can trust in is that God will be there to hold me up, comfort me and love on me. 

Someone out there may not believe this.  Might think this lady hasn't seen what I've seen.  She hasn't been through what I've been through.  That could be true.  We all have a different journey.  But I know what pain, betrayal, fear, hunger, anger, and overwhelming misery is.  I have walked with that in my journey.  But I have also known love and been blessed to love as well.  Some of the pain has helped me to see through God's eyes.  If you struggle with trusting Him today I ask that you do what I have done many times.  Stop, get quiet, asking Him why, what, who, how whatever you need to and listen.  If you don't first hear Him speaking to your heart try again.  He will answer.  Trust Him.  When all others fail, He is the one that is truly worthy of your trust.

Hope you have a good day.